2010 - The Year of ROCK! As Supreme Ruler of the Beki Bubble, I have decided, and so it is so.
On Christmas Eve, I bought my Download Festival tickets. They had to be bought before Christmas. Before we even know the line up. Mainly because the tickets are cheaper in the presale. We pay last years prices. Fantabulous! But also because until May I am basically locking myself in the Beki Bubble and hibernating until I (a) have money and (b) lose all the weight I gained last year!
The exception of this being two occassions in February when I have pre-existing aappointments with the Gods of Rock! 4th February I'm taking my baby brother to see Rammstein for his birthday. Then on 27th February RaRa is taking me to see Lost Prophets. Should be a good month!
Hiding away may seem extreme, but it works for me. First off, I have accumulated a little bit of debt over the last three years or so and I really need to get back in the black! I hate being in debt and I hate being skint. It's horrible. So I am applied for part time jobs to supplement my income, I am setting up an ebay shop and I am reducing my household bills. I only wish I could cancel the council tax. They should call it the "wipe my entire bank account out for emptying my bins why don't you tax"!
Also, the diet that I have started is the Lighterlife Total Plan. It is a food replacement very low calorie diet. So I can't eat. I did this same diet between September 2008 and March 2009 and I lost over 6 stone. But the social aspect just got the better of me. People who I thought were my friends put me down the smaller I got and I allowed it to happen. I let them help me sabotage myself. Well I've got rid of those people now. Karma will have them!
So this time around I am not giving myself any chances to slip up. I am surrounding myself with positive people. I am not putting myself in situations where I will end up upset. Yes I will possibly miss out on a few things. But what is a few months in the long term plan? Nothing, that's what!
I am quite hopeful that I can put everything into motion by the end of the month. Be on my way to a smaller, better off, happier future.
